As someone with anxiety, I completely understand the fear of stepping out of your comfort zone. Too many times I have turned down opportunities and held back because I was afraid of failing, being too clumsy or unwanted. However, in the last two years, I’ve grown tired of missing out on the things that interest me. It’s so nerve-wracking to sit back and watch others do the things you want to do so badly. Through therapy and self-help books, I began to get my life back on track and have loved it ever since. To really demonstrate it to you, I’m going to share some personal examples.
In December of last year, I accepted an internship position at a residential home for children with disabilities. Before I was offered the position, my bosses made sure to inform me of all the potential challenges of the job. they informed me that some days were going to be very hard. There may be times when I get hit, kicked, cursed, and pushed. There was also a guarantee that I would have to clean up bodily fluids of all kinds and help change diapers, shower and more. After hearing all this, I got a little off. I wondered if I could handle it and if I would be able to succeed or if my first day would also be my last. But he was determined to have an internship for next summer.and I have always liked working with children, so I decided to do it.
The first week consisted of different training workshops and paperwork. Nothing too exciting until Thursday of that week. On our fourth day, we got to look around the facility to see what a normal day at work would look like. By the time I arrived, I was obsessed. I knew right then and there that this was where i was supposed to be. I even went so far as to quit my other job so I could spend more time there! Although the work was not easy, I am so thankful that I did.. A job that I almost turned down turned into an amazing summer filled with so many lessons and memories that I will carry with me for the rest of my life. In addition to my personal growth, I have also gained work experience and a list of great references that will be beneficial to my career!
Something you should know about me is that when I was in my first year of high school, I randomly decided to cut all my hair one night with kitchen shears. To my surprise, and certainly not to yours, it was terrible. Not only did I not know how to cut it straight, but I also didn’t think about the fact that wet hair shrinks when dry. So poor 14 year old me sported the same haircut as Johnny Depp in Willy Wonka And The Chocolate Factory. Due to this tragedy, my hair became a security blanket and i refused to cut it for a long time. However, deep down I’m dying to have short hair with bangs. After thinking about it for months, I finally took the first step and got curtain bangs. I loved them! Fast forward to last semester, and I was fighting every urge to cut my hair. I was so afraid that I would look bad and that everyone who saw my hair would agree. I played around with different apps and tried to visualize what it would look like, until one day i just called my stylist and booked the appointment. Shaking in my seat, I watched my hair fall to the floor. Then she moved to her bangs, and I literally almost stopped her, but didn’t. At the end of the day, it was just hair. She will grow back and everything will be fine. The worst outcome is that she strategically used hats and headbands for a couple of weeks. But fortunately, that was not the case. I left that room a new person and with a smile from ear to ear. It’s been six months now and I don’t know when I’ll have long hair again, but I can tell you it won’t be any time soon.
While I could give a plethora of additional examples, I think the biggest evidence is simply that the regret is much greater when you don’t do something than when you do it and don’t succeed. Life is too short to sit around and miss out on the things that make it worth living. Living is trying and failing. Win and lose. To cry and to smile. Love and hurt To live is to feel everything there is to feel. Don’t miss out on life just because you’re afraid of feeling a little uncomfortable.